Reminded

I've been reminded today how precious my life is....everyone who knows me knows that I'm on a few mothering message boards. Well some may think they are silly but I love them and have become friends with many mothers from them.
My heart broke this morning to find that one of our long time members lost her battle to cancer yesterday! She has two daughters who are so, so young. Too young to have just lost their mother. I cry every time I think of it. I can't imagine the loss that her family is feeling today. To think of missing a single moment of my boys lives just makes the tears flow harder. Or having have to watch my partner, my bestfriend, my forever, leave this world......

So I am reminded how THANKFUL I am to have Evan, my bestfriend, my love. John, my wild, my sweet first child. And Alan, my soft sweet baby. And how I need to make lasting memories with them!


This has been on my mind all day and tonight at bedtime it really hit me hard and I couldn't keep the tears hidden. I kept hugging John and telling him how much I love him. And then he went to choose his bedtime book. He choose I'll love you forever. Well if that didn't push me over the edge. I cried through the entire book. And then tucked him in and we sang our normal bedtime songs. After I was done singing he asked me why I had tears coming down my face. I told him it was because I am so lucky to be his mother. And he replied with, Mommy you are so beautiful! Seriously, I am Blessed to have this child! Of course this made me cry more and give him more kisses. I told him that I will love him forever and always and he then says I'll always be your son.

So for those of you reading this. Give your husbands, wives, children, pets, whoever and extra hug and kiss. Forget about the annoying things they do. Forget about the dishes in the sink or the dirty bathroom (yes this is my house right now) and enjoy every second with them. Make memories, dance to a silly song, play in the rain, be happy and LOVE!

To ALL of my family and friends. I love you so much. You make my life better for being in it and you are all always in my thoughts and prayers whether we are near or far.

Becky, I know that you are no longer in pain and watching over your husband and girls from a happier place. You were such and amazing fighter. Thank you for the gift that you have given me. Forever and Always....