So I just started reading a blog that blew me away and I realized that I never write anything "personal" here and just had to come and chatter.....
The blog was written by a woman and it follows her journey in finding out that the child she is pregnant with has many "issues" and isn't likely to survive. I was/am so amazed at her faith.
It has reminded me of how grateful I am for John. I know I am already emotional just of the fact that he is going to be 2 but that's not it. I just never knew that something could consume me like motherhood has. My child is literally the first thing I think of and the last each day and I wouldn't change it. He some how manages to make me want to pull my hair out one second and then the next have me rolling on the floor with laughter. I just feel so blessed. My only wish for him is for him to be what HE wants to be. I hope that he is able to find happiness in himself and the life that he chooses.
I've been thinking about babies alot lately and can't help but get sad about the miscarriage. I haven't mentioned it on here because for the most part I try to keep it out of my mind and keep moving with life and I want to keep this happy and uplifting, but I do so long hope to give John a sibling and can't wait for the day to make a new post with the "news". I know it will happen when the time is right ;)
Well I hate to write about sad things so I will end with Happiness.
We leave in about 6 hours for Florida!! I can't wait to see our family and to watch John enjoy their company. I know he has missed them all sooo much. And I can't wait for his birthday and to watch him open his gifts and to hear his yell of excitement (that is new thing to do).
Oh and Note to self must by party Hats HAHA
We had dinner with our friends tonight and they gave him his presents and when we were leaving they said I hope you have a good birthday John. And for the rest of the night he said "happy day, party hats" HAHA I don't know why my child loves hats so much.
Well I need to get to bed. Thank you all for reading this chatter and I hope you all know how much I appreciate your support in my daily life and for the love and inspiration you share.
Alison