I've been reminded today how precious my life is....everyone who knows me knows that I'm on a few mothering message boards. Well some may think they are silly but I love them and have become friends with many mothers from them.
My heart broke this morning to find that one of our long time members lost her battle to cancer yesterday! She has two daughters who are so, so young. Too young to have just lost their mother. I cry every time I think of it. I can't imagine the loss that her family is feeling today. To think of missing a single moment of my boys lives just makes the tears flow harder. Or having have to watch my partner, my bestfriend, my forever, leave this world......
So I am reminded how THANKFUL I am to have Evan, my bestfriend, my love. John, my wild, my sweet first child. And Alan, my soft sweet baby. And how I need to make lasting memories with them!
This has been on my mind all day and tonight at bedtime it really hit me hard and I couldn't keep the tears hidden. I kept hugging John and telling him how much I love him. And then he went to choose his bedtime book. He choose I'll love you forever. Well if that didn't push me over the edge. I cried through the entire book. And then tucked him in and we sang our normal bedtime songs. After I was done singing he asked me why I had tears coming down my face. I told him it was because I am so lucky to be his mother. And he replied with, Mommy you are so beautiful! Seriously, I am Blessed to have this child! Of course this made me cry more and give him more kisses. I told him that I will love him forever and always and he then says I'll always be your son.
So for those of you reading this. Give your husbands, wives, children, pets, whoever and extra hug and kiss. Forget about the annoying things they do. Forget about the dishes in the sink or the dirty bathroom (yes this is my house right now) and enjoy every second with them. Make memories, dance to a silly song, play in the rain, be happy and LOVE!
To ALL of my family and friends. I love you so much. You make my life better for being in it and you are all always in my thoughts and prayers whether we are near or far.
Becky, I know that you are no longer in pain and watching over your husband and girls from a happier place. You were such and amazing fighter. Thank you for the gift that you have given me. Forever and Always....
Monday, July 26, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
I'm REALLY bad at this
Blogging that is....why I never post is beyond me :)
Things are going great here!
The boys are WILD as always.
Alan has started WALKING! Can you believe it. Time is really flying by this time. He rarely falls now and has figured out how to stand back up on his own. He is eating more and more regular food, but he is so silly and really hates touching much with his hands so I still have to feed him LOL. He is starting to babble alot too and John and I both swear he said Dada this morning in the middle of his ramblings. He loves John soooo much. He follows him from room to room and I know I'm can actually get things done if I put him in the playroom with John, but if John leaves the room he flips out.
John, John, John. What more can I say. I think he is going to be my child that always tests his limits. It amazes me how Sweet and just loving he can be and then how quickly he can turn into this mad, rude 3 year old! He does not do well with change and wants things his way. Lets just say he knows the corners in our house VERY well. But I so love that he loves to snuggle his mommy. It always makes my heart melt.
Brotherly love....thinking of my boys together seriously takes my breath away. Too see the pure love they have for one another is such a blessing. It is so sweet to watch John get excited that his brother does something. And to see Alan get excited when we play "find John" everynight at bedtime. They love to hug and wrestle with each other. It just brings joy to a Mommy's heart. Makes me feel a little less guilty for all of the one on one time John has lost with me and the one and one time that Alan will never get.
Blah, Blah...I'll hunt up some pictures....
Wrestle mania
John at the Park
Alan LOVES to sleep in my Buckle-Tai Carrier
that's all I've got online right now so that will have to do :)
Things are going great here!
The boys are WILD as always.
Alan has started WALKING! Can you believe it. Time is really flying by this time. He rarely falls now and has figured out how to stand back up on his own. He is eating more and more regular food, but he is so silly and really hates touching much with his hands so I still have to feed him LOL. He is starting to babble alot too and John and I both swear he said Dada this morning in the middle of his ramblings. He loves John soooo much. He follows him from room to room and I know I'm can actually get things done if I put him in the playroom with John, but if John leaves the room he flips out.
John, John, John. What more can I say. I think he is going to be my child that always tests his limits. It amazes me how Sweet and just loving he can be and then how quickly he can turn into this mad, rude 3 year old! He does not do well with change and wants things his way. Lets just say he knows the corners in our house VERY well. But I so love that he loves to snuggle his mommy. It always makes my heart melt.
Brotherly love....thinking of my boys together seriously takes my breath away. Too see the pure love they have for one another is such a blessing. It is so sweet to watch John get excited that his brother does something. And to see Alan get excited when we play "find John" everynight at bedtime. They love to hug and wrestle with each other. It just brings joy to a Mommy's heart. Makes me feel a little less guilty for all of the one on one time John has lost with me and the one and one time that Alan will never get.
Blah, Blah...I'll hunt up some pictures....
Wrestle mania
John at the Park
Alan LOVES to sleep in my Buckle-Tai Carrier
that's all I've got online right now so that will have to do :)
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